Oh the tangled webs we weave,
The stupid shit we do.
Words strangled upon the lips
Wet with venomous dew.
There lie mangled solemn oaths;
Sincerely they were sworn.
The bells jangled in mockery
Of the day when white was worn.
In new-fangled self-centeredness,
The conscience left to wilt,
Brightly dangled forbidden fruit
Poisons the soul with guilt.

Bone-dry black
Then flame flutters
Darkness banished
Instantaneous illumination
Stability to speed
A case of catalyst
Gleam for the guilty
Engraved with a name
Dust into dust
Strong crumbles
Scattered powder
Shattered structure
Contracts and laws
Physics' court jester
Count by precedence
Of the broken and bent
Elevated alchemy
Lead into light
Sparkling mid-air
Everything glitters

I still miss you

Though I do not want you

Your lies and how you vanished

Shot to hell my sense of closure

You were so sweet

So trusting and kind

Your faithfulness and faith in me

Changed my mind and won me over

I'm sorry for a lot

For how I treated you

For trying to find the right path

Gave you what you wanted, but didn't need

I wish I'd known

My mistake was so final

I once trusted you enough

To cut and make me bleed

I hope you understand

More than you did before

That love is not a plaything

That stupidity has consequences

I wish you didn't know

That loving won't make someone stay

That being loved won't change your mind

That it's treacherous to trust your senses

Sometimes I wonder

Why you pretended at the end

Asked for my forgiveness

Used me and left again once I took the cat

It's unlike you

To be so heartless

I guess I earned it

But I wish you hadn't become that

Because of me.

From the treasure of my heart

My mouth shall speak

Careful constructions

Measured and mortared

So they won't fall apart

Paint with colored streaks

Paper functions

As a soul's thin shard

A mirror for sadness

Joy, love, confusion

Turn the opaque white

To the clearest window

A stained-glass mess

Sharp shatters' illusion

Smoke and light

Song, dance, and show

The grand presentation

The structure of grace

Attempted transparency

Are no offhanded endeavor

No mere stray motivations

Pave the path to this place

Cost emotional currency

Demand pain with the pleasure

So in this calmness of storm

Tranquil waters unstirred

Peaceful and content

No extremes to pour

The mirror hangs forlorn

All sadness seems cured

The bottles I sent

Never reached the far shore

Feelings I canned

Their sweetness preserved

Relationship's richness remains

The fullness lulls to sleep

In this lush, green land

Safety undeserved

No volcanos or chains

Or love I can't keep

Monochromatic life

I am happy here

But I seek the expression

I had once before.

I'm done writing for you

Stop blocking me in

I'm finding something new

I won't be calling again

I'm far too convinced

I can't be good enough

I've had a hard time since

You asked me to just be tough

Your encouragements and songs

Playlists and empowerments

Ring empty, hollow, wrong

They only make me tense

Mistrustful and cautious

Promises are meaningless

I find old plans are nautious

Holes and tears in the seamless

Way things were supposed to be

You had it all mapped out

To-do items, one two three

That you never brought about

It was supposed to be you

I'm so thankful it's not

Your words weren't true

I'm leaving that future to rot.