I still miss you

Though I do not want you

Your lies and how you vanished

Shot to hell my sense of closure

You were so sweet

So trusting and kind

Your faithfulness and faith in me

Changed my mind and won me over

I'm sorry for a lot

For how I treated you

For trying to find the right path

Gave you what you wanted, but didn't need

I wish I'd known

My mistake was so final

I once trusted you enough

To cut and make me bleed

I hope you understand

More than you did before

That love is not a plaything

That stupidity has consequences

I wish you didn't know

That loving won't make someone stay

That being loved won't change your mind

That it's treacherous to trust your senses

Sometimes I wonder

Why you pretended at the end

Asked for my forgiveness

Used me and left again once I took the cat

It's unlike you

To be so heartless

I guess I earned it

But I wish you hadn't become that

Because of me.